I know how dangerous it is to suppress your feelings inside because you never know when you might just erupt from all the built-up pressure internally..
IT SUCKS TO BE POOLED.
Fine, go ahead and call me an ungrateful grouch.. The fact is, waiting for this Cambridge reply has caused me to be more anxious than waiting for all 5 of my other applications put together.. And to be told that I have to wait some more makes me want to rip every hair of mine out of its follicle..
Yeah, yeah, I know.. I should be grateful to have a second chance.. But I can't stand the waiting game anymore! This is where most people would say "even a rejection is better than all this waiting".. But then, I know for sure that rejection sucks even more than getting pooled and the aforementioned quote is just a clever way to cover up the prolonged anxiety and fear of, well, getting rejected..
But I'm not that sure whether I can cope with the demanding workload of Cambridge.. F got his Comp Sci spot but he's required to take an extra maths paper.. More maths.. And F takes Further Maths already :P I can't imagine how I, a (lazy) single Maths A-Level student, could handle all that.. So if Cambridge doesn't want me, I guess that isn't too bad now, is it?
True, if you're used to getting rejected all the time :P
Oh, and if you haven't noticed, all that I-don't-wanna-go-to-Cambridge talk is also a cover up in case I get rejected pretty soon..
The reality is that nobody likes to be an Oxbridge reject.. But still, I think this t-shirt is pretty cool, don't you think? :)
In the meantime, I'll just sit back and see what the future holds in store for me and the rest of those wading in the pool with me..
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NHA at 10:15 AM ::
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