ALMOST ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!! I've made the biggest sin in the world.. I haven't updated my blog for nearly one whole lousy week! I'm so sorry, my dear blog.. I sincerely didn't mean to forsake you :P
I've been busy preparing for my Statistics paper.. Well, OK, so that's a (partial) lie.. I've been trying to clear my head, especially since I've been prone to getting headaches more often these past few days.. I went back home last weekend and I slept almost 12 hours just to make it go away.. Sweet bliss :P
Yesterday, our gang who went to KYSM for the one-week job attachment last April was called up to meet the bursar.. Finally :P We've been waiting to meet him for ages, although after the outcome of yesterday's meeting, I'm not sure why we were so looking forward to it in the first place.. Despite him being outnumbered 5 to 1, we were bombarded with his verbal ammo - right, left and centre.. Granted, all his points were valid.. In fact, from what he amply told us, our report was shallow and worthless compared to the real story.. His real story.. Well, true, we should've done more research.. We should've gotten our facts right before comparing KYSM's 'miniscule' network of 70 computers to KYUEM's 'gigantic' network of 300 plus.. Yesterday, we were told off in more ways than one on how foolish we were to actually compare both networks and actually criticize our network.. Well, I'm sorry for voicing grievances after waiting for months on end without any network in my chalet :P
I agree, there is no comparison between us and KYSM.. But our objective was to highlight the problems in our existing network, with the hope that the administration would sit up and do something about it.. I think in one way, our plan did work.. The people from the upper echelons, namely the college's Board of Governers, have decided to allocate resources for a complete overhaul of the network structure and wiring, and from what the bursar told us, everything will be in place by next semester.. If you look at it one way, our 'mission' was a success.. At the price of yesterday's hour-long skirmish :P
Over the weekend, another thing happened, which really made me ponder over the kind of friendships I have, and the ones I've made towards other people.. I also thought about how easy it was for me to place the blame on everybody else except on me.. I've made some stupid mistakes, and God knows that I'll be making them again in the future.. And it's times like these when you really need the support and trust of the people you call friends..
OK, so they might not fancy what I'm trying to do.. So therein lies my problem.. In order to gain support and trust, I must do something that I don't feel like doing at all.. But if I don't do it, I'm stuck in this lonely, dark abyss.. But no matter what my justifications are, I admit that it won't change what's happened.. My feelings won't change the way other people think of me.. But the fact is that the people whom I didn't expect to care about me have been coming up to me asking if I'm doing OK or not, whereas my own 'friends' are the very ones who continue to talk behind my back..
I know, there are so many things beyond my control.. But what I can do is pray to God that I will get through this..
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NHA at 9:19 AM ::
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