These are one of those times when I really feel like I've got all my priorities screwed up.. This afternoon in Computing, everybody else was using the double period to complete their AS structured task while I had to type out an extra page to be included into our computer club's job attachment report.. While I was trying to construct proper sentences, so many people were calling out for my help with their own projects.. I'm not saying that I mind helping them.. It's just that personally, seeing everybody progressing except me is kind of demoralizing..
But a funny thing happened during the class.. I was helping H out by trying to figure out how to relate a drop down list to an external report, which really took a lot of brainpower just to analyse.. And after I referred to the help file and then proceeded to include more and more gobbledygook inside his codes, I decided to ask our teacher, Mr. R, for some help.. So I was asking him, "How do you relate this drop down list -" I asked as I selected an option from the list, "- to create a new report?" and I clicked on a command button.. And what do you know.. The elusive report actually appeared on the screen! I felt like my eyeballs were popping out of their sockets the moment I saw it.. Somehow the gobbledygook I was typing turned out to be the exact solution to my problem.. And to think I was actually asking for Mr. R's help at that moment! :P
Anyway, H bought me a drink at the cafe later in the night.. Heh.. Alhamdulillah..
My friend A asked me if I think it's wise to delve into boy-girl relationships at this age.. What did I tell him? He's asking the wrong person.. Because I'm always biased in favour of it.. I know that lots of people think that it's a waste of time and that there are more important priorities than relationships.. But I've always plunged into these matters head first.. To me, relationships are learning experiences.. It teaches me a lot about how people react to me and how I react to people.. I always feel as if I've got nothing to lose each time I fall for a guy.. Rejection? What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.. So whenever my friends come up to me for some love advice, the only thing I would say is "Go for it."
I know.. Despite proclaiming to other people how knowledgeable I am about these things, in reality I'm still as naive as a schoolgirl.. I still let my own emotions shadow rational thought, which is pretty ironic for someone who's called Dr. Love by some other people.. hehe.. I can help solve other people's love problems, but I'm hopeless in my own..
Nevertheless, that's not going to stop me from moving on with my own way of life.. Even if it means inflicting emotional blackmail to myself every few months :P Life is too short to be overly cautious.. And any self-respecting drama queen has to have some sort of love interest every now and then, right? :)
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NHA at 4:59 PM ::
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