I'm happy today.. Happy, happy, happy..
I don't think I've been able to say that for a few days now.. Until today.. These past 24 hours must be the most tumultuous roller-coaster ride of my life..
Yesterday, my ex asked if we could get back together again.. After all this time.. After all these months.. He finally came back.. Even after the whole Gloria Gaynor incident (refer to the Apr 26 post).. And yesterday, I didn't have the heart to say 'no' to him.. How funny is that? Even after adamantly telling other people all around me that I'm so over him, I still couldn't bring myself to tell him off..
So I asked for more time.. And a few hours after our discussion, he sent me a message saying that he's gotten the hint and he'll never disturb me anymore.. Cool, problem solved, right? No, I just had to complicate matters.. By crying.. I totally gave way to my emotions then and there.. Even my mum who tried to console me through the phone failed miserably..
For the rest of the day, I was totally dazed.. Even throughout drama practice, it's a wonder that my friends didn't come up to me and asked what was with the long face.. Hmm, maybe because I was holding a long carbon steel stick, my prop for the night.. hehehe :P
But what my friends told me were true.. This is basically a simple problem, made complicated by yours truly.. I know full well what the solution should be.. My only obstacle was to carry it out..
So today, I asked my ex out for lunch in the cafe.. And after we ate, I told him - with much hesitation - that my answer is no.. And despite that, I still didn't want to lose him.. I truly value all the time we had spent together and I really enjoyed his company.. And I didn't want to risk all that just because I've decided that I've had enough with the whole coupling business..
So after proposing that we stay friends, I left.. Heh, that's a bad habit of mine.. Sort of like overdramatising scenes.. Leaving the hero standing there while the heroine runs away teary eyed.. hehehe.. :)
But now he says he's not worthy of my friendship.. How am I supposed to answer that?
And to make my day even brighter, I actually managed to alleviate my 2 friends' long standing relationship problem between them.. They were seriously breaking up until I walked through the door.. Imagine two volcanoes erupting at the same time and all the lava was pouring into the same valley - me.. At that time, I totally regretting walking into those two in the first place.. It was as if they were playing tug-of-war.. With me as their rope :P It took me all the composure I had not to take sides and to see their problem objectively.. They insisted that they discussed the matter together with me, although I would've preferred to talk to each one of them personally.. Especially since every point given by one party would be quickly interjected by the other person :P
It's funny.. Going into the discussion, I was almost convinced that they were totally over.. And in the end, they're both thanking me for saving their relationship :) Way to go, girl!!! Another score for Dr. Love.. hehehe :)
So I'm happy with the way things turned out today.. Sometimes I'm too focused on my own selfish needs that I forget how easy it is for me to be happy simply by seeing other people happy :)
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NHA at 11:10 AM ::
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