I did a mock MUET reading test paper during English today.. Not that bad, but not that simple either.. Not unlike SPM format.. The Goverment is making us sit for the exam to observe the correlation between MUET and the IELTS that we will be taking soon.. Personally, I don't understand why we should be going through all the trouble.. But since it's free and we will be skipping all classes this Saturday to sit for it, I'm not complaining.. hehe :)
My friend told me the reason why I live up to my drama queen tendencies is because I'm depressed.. Somehow I keep stirring things up in my life just to make it interesting so that I can disguise my depression, or something like that.. Well, although I do believe there's nothing wrong in putting some spice in your life, but to the extent of purposely getting myself into trouble? Hmm.. I do think she has a point.. Sometimes I just like feeling all miserable for no reason at all.. It's kind of stupid, come to think about it.. But it's come to a point where it has become sort of a habit.. I feel like I must be miserable.. And if there happens to be a lack of problems to make me feel miserable, subconsciously I'd be looking for more trouble :P
I know.. I know.. You're probably going to refer me to some shrink right now :P But talking to my friend really made me ponder whether I've taken my drama queen role to the point of self-prophecy.. What exactly is bugging me these past few days? Studies, perhaps? I've got less than a month and I don't think I've ever been this unprepared.. But it's not like I keep thinking about my exams 24/7, so it has to be another reason.. Hmm.. Could it be.. nah, I'm not going to delve into that.. For now..
But on the bright side, I'm blessed to be surrounded by caring friends who wouldn't mind telling me that something's wrong with me.. What more could I ask for?
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NHA at 4:59 PM ::
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