It just so happened that 24 hours before having to decide the lineup for our chess team, J, the club president, went for his 2-day trip to Bukit Tinggi.. Leaving all the decision-making to me.. Darn..
Basically we're left with a fairly weakened team without the services of J and B who both went for the trip.. So out of 10 team members, there's only around 3 to 4 that can put up a challenge to KMB who has depth and numbers on their side.. The last time they came to our college for our previous invitational tournament, all 10 of its players were really strong.. Fortunately at that time, our team was better.. But without 2 of our key players, I doubt that we could repeat the same achievement.. So you can imagine how difficult it was for me to arrange the players in their respective teams.. A lot of them didn't want to be placed in the so-called first team because they couldn't bear the pressure of delivering a win.. One of them even wanted to be included in the losing team..
I think sometimes I might've been too harsh on these people.. Maybe my drive to see our college win has made them apprehensive.. Don't they know that I'm just as scared of losing as they are? Everyone's pointing fingers, saying that somebody else is better than themselves.. If this is the case, then how am I supposed to form 2 teams in which each of its members feel at ease with their positions? Some might feel neglected for being cast in the second team.. Some might feel overwhelmed by being in the first team.. If this goes on any longer, then I might as well be the only person in the first team! How the heck am I supposed to please everyone???
Which is exactly why I'm not going to.. hehe.. Tomorrow I'll be springing a surprise that nobody would ever expect.. Even from me.. Heh.. Even I didn't expect myself to be doing this.. It'll be something so unthinkable that the only way to gauge whether it's successful or not is to take a chance on it.. Only then will we see if our - my - gamble has paid off..
Why am I taking such a risk? Courtesy of my brother, the chess mastermind of my family :)
Hopefully everything will turn out to be OK.. I'm not putting high hopes on anything.. With the current predicament, being able to survive the next 48 hours would be a blessing already for me..
Wish us luck.. Go KYUEM! :)
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NHA at 3:59 PM ::
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