Thursday, January 08, 2004
Started the day 'promisingly' when my classmates openly vowed their support towards my rival, T, in the coming elections.. :P
I had to attend this meeting which involves all presidents of clubs and societies and I was there by virtue of heading Veritas.. I asked my friend Z to tell my ex to go as well because he was the chess president.. In the end it turned out he didn't go and my senior had to fill in for him.. So now I'm in charge of looking for 2 junior chess club members to help man the club's table for tomorrow's clubs and societies registration day.. AND I still have to look for another 2 people to do it for Veritas as well..
Why.. the.. heck.. can't.. I.. get.. him.. out.. of.. my.. head????? I have told myself thousands of times that my ex's not even worth my time.. But why is he still in my head? Why does he make me feel the way he still does??
All this may sound as if I haven't tried anything to forget him.. But I have.. God knows how much I've tried.. I don't get it.. I've deleted every single SMS from him.. I've been mingling around with people a lot more.. I've quit Business Studies which I intended to do a long time ago.. I'm going to be the MC for our college's Ladies Night soon.. and I'm even running for a Student Council post! If people say you should get busy when you're trying to forget somebody, I'm already way past being 'just' busy! Then what the heck is the problem with me?
Exorcist aura.. huh.. my foot la.. I just slowly crumble inside whenever he starts ignoring me.. Even when I know that he's totally over me.. Even when I know he's not exactly the most eligible bachelor in the world.. Even when I know I should regain my pride and walk away..
What the heck is wrong with me?????
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NHA at 3:57 PM ::
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