Right now I'm at KMYS singing to the tune of Sarah McLachlan's songs, karaoke style.. Took more than 4 hours to sort out all my stuff.. Only to find out that I forgot to bring my printer!! Darn.. Spent RM108 for nothing.. :P
My ex is here too.. And both my friend and her boyfriend (who is incidentally my ex's chaletmate) are persuading me to go meet him.. Heck.. with friends like these there's no way to hold on to your will so easily.. I went to college this morning with a mindset of not caring about him anymore.. As soon as I met my friend, she showered me with advice after advice that I should :P
Then when that didn't work, she told me how to approach him so that he could accept me back, etc. etc.. But wait a minute.. Doesn't anybody see?? I want us to get back together but I don't think it's possible without the interest - or consent - of the other party, my ex.. There was too much damage done and I don't see it getting repaired any time soon.. It's not like I don't want to see him anymore, but I think he doesn't.. So with that in mind, I think I don't want to see him either.. (did you comprehend any of that?)..
Well.. whatever the case is, I really hope I don't bump into him tomorrow.. Simply because I don't know how to face him yet.. I know that I should be a fighter and just bulldoze my way through.. But I just think I'm not ready yet.. Maybe in Computing class, where there are lots more computers to look at, I won't have any problems.. But when his face is among the small number of people in a group, I don't think I can risk it yet.. In fact, I might just run off the 1st chance I get!
Serves me right for putting myself in this whole mess in the 1st place.. There's nothing else for me to do but to pull through..
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NHA at 3:59 PM ::
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