Well, ok.. let me be honest with you.. The only reason why I even bother to keep diaries is because I :
a) had a crush on a guy
b) broke up with a guy
So what's the occassion now? Case B unfortunately.. My (former) love of my life is my collegemate who goes by the nickname Ahkee.. Why did we break up? If I were to tell you then it would take the whole day.. No, not really.. I just don't feel like discussing about it.. (which makes me ponder.. I'll be returning to college once my holidays are over.. how on earth will I be able to face everybody there??)
It's been 3 days since I asked for the break up.. Since then, he's decided to quit all his chess activities, including his active participation in both GameKnot and his most prized possession, Lodis-Knight. He's also decided to drop Computing - the same class he shares with me - once AS exams are over.
Frankly for me, all this determination from him is a good thing; I've never seen him this adamant about anything. Yet, all this is just going to draw him further away from me..
It serves me right, I guess.. Like my motto, "You don't know what you've got till it's gone".. I thought there were a lot of things missing in our relationship the moment I asked for the break up.. But after all this it turns out they were still there.. I was just too blind to see it..
What's done is done.. There's possibly no way for me to take back what I've said and done.. He's moving on with his life.. Maybe I should too..
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NHA at 7:02 AM ::
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