My friend called me up to ask about my break up.. Darn.. Despite my attempts to dodge or divert her attention, in the end I had no choice but to explain to her about the reasons for my break up.. Well, not ALL of the reasons.. Just some that I deemed were fit for disclosure.. But talking to her was pretty nice.. Got to catch up with her again.. It seems like she's found herself a new boyfriend.. Hmm.. how come everybody's luck in love shines ever so bright while I'm going the opposite direction..
However, talking to her made me realize.. My ex wasn't exactly perfect.. In fact far from it.. But he's extremely sweet (his friends are going to puke) and thoughtful (at times).. The only thing that's holding me back from forgetting him right now is all those good memories we once shared.. Is it worth accepting his distinct imperfections just for those memories? Hmm..
I also got what I think would be the last e-mail I'd be receiving from my ex's lil sis.. Yesterday my junior reaffirmed my feelings that contacting her isn't the right thing to do.. So this time I just stopped clicking the 'Reply' button..
Everybody says that I should get a new guy after my break up.. Well, don't u think I've tried? There was this 1 night where I SMSed (almost) all the guys I used to meet or talk to.. I even had 1 of them call me on my handphone at 2am.. But it turned out that he already has a girlfriend.. All the rest had either stopped replying after my 2nd message, poured their own love woes at me or just changed numbers altogether :P
There's this other guy who called me the next day and we just catched up on old times.. We were corresponding as usual for a few days.. Then there was this 1 time he called me and mid-sentence he said "OK, actually I have a girlfriend".. Well, what the heck was that? Do you think I desperately need your attention that I might be offended by the fact that you're taken? I wasn't so much pissed off at the intentional delay of his announcement.. (that sly playboy).. What really made me blew my top off was the way he said it.. As if I was hoping something from him.. Grrr.. Who does he think he is anyway??? Sometimes it just makes me think the whole world's male population consists of jerks.. But of course, that's an exaggeration.. In reality, all the male jerks in the world are drawn to me.. :P
OK OK.. so that's another exaggeration.. But these past few days have made me really doubt whether I could snatch myself another boyfriend.. At least for the time being.. I remember writing in my resolutions last year that I would find myself a boyfriend.. Haha.. Look at where that has gotten me into now :P
2004's just around the corner.. What resolutions would I make for next year?
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NHA at 3:59 PM ::
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