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Friday, February 27, 2004
I managed to breeze through my tutorial's public speaking presentation without a hitch.. It was a dead boring topic, 'Chess in Malaysia'.. Even my friend Z once fell asleep when I practised it with him the other day :P But since I didn't have any other alternative, I decided to just do it.. All my tutormates were rolling their eyes by the time I presented the title of my speech.. But fortunately my tutor, Mr. A, was supportive enough.. After some of his coaxing, I went on with my speech.. At the end of it, he was fairly impressed with my 'confidence', 'liveliness', and 'eye contact'.. Woohooo.. You go girl.. hehehe..
I also brought back my laptop from the IT servicing centre.. The IT guy gave his final diagnosis : I need to replace my network card.. Oh well.. There goes my money for the house trip to Pulau Kapas.. Darn..
My friends are writing this round-robin essay which sounds very interesting.. Guess what the topic is? Boys.. Apparently both of them have been badly bruised while cruising the highway of love and they lived to speak about it.. And I've been cordially invited to join the club.. Hmm.. The prospect does sound inviting.. We all plan to have it published in Veritas, our college's newsletter.. But somehow the overall tone of the essay is somewhat.. guy-bashing.. I'm not saying that I don't agree 100% with what they're saying.. It's just that most of the time, I know why both members of the opposite sex do such things that normally irritate each other.. And to merely bash the general public i.e. boys because of a few unfortunate incidents is a bit too far off for me..
Well, OK, most boys have a few general characteristics which could use some improvement.. But I'm really having second thoughts about allowing it to be published.. Firstly, it sounds more like a personal rant than an objective viewpoint on the battle of the sexes.. Secondly, how can I write a few paragraphs that would distance myself from being anti-males completely while still holding true to the theme of 'boys are a waste of space'? Hahaha.. sounds sort of like an oxymoron to me :P
But honestly, there are some things in life that you just can't live both with or without.. Like sinfully delicious chocolate pudding.. Annoying siblings whose mission in life is to, well, annoy you.. And boys.. It's like, no matter how much you try to live life without them, more often than not you find yourself falling for one again.. It's like you're walking a huge circle to come back to right where you started at.. And you repeat the cycle again and again and again and again..
At least that's my observation.. My friends keep telling me that they're swearing off boys.. But frankly, if that was the case then what's the big deal with the whole essay thingee?
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NHA at 3:59 PM ::
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Thursday, February 26, 2004
The IT guy told me that my laptop does have a network connection but for some obscure reason, it's not channeling any data at all.. There should be a huge 'X' sign on my networking icon but there isn't any.. So he asked if I wanted to leave my laptop there for 'ujian selanjutnya' (further tests).. Somehow, his tone was like a doctor asking for permission from a family member to treat a patient.. No, more like amputating a limb or something :P
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NHA at 3:59 PM ::
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The lady from the IT Department came over to my room to check out my laptop's network connection.. After tinkering around, she asked me to bring my laptop to the IT Servicing Centre because she couldn't figure out why my connection's lost.. The laptop she brought along worked fine with the connection but mine didn't.. In other words, my worst fears are confirmed.. My network card must be damaged.. Darn..
I'm planning on staying over the weekend here in college due to my mock exams.. But I haven't bought the Accounting textbook my teacher wanted and of course, I still needed to buy a new network card.. Hmm.. But if I go back home, I'm dead positive that I won't be touching a single book.. So I think for the longevity of my academic life here in KYUEM (the college's new name), those things will have to wait :P
Apparently I still keep getting belated birthday presents.. My friend A gave me a cute soft toy, and while I was exiting the Resource Centre, I bumped into my pet bro D who asked me to 'remind him' to give me my birthday card that he's been keeping all this while.. Hehe..
I'll be lugging my laptop to the IT technician tonight.. Hopefully something can be done..
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NHA at 8:58 AM ::
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004
I'm dying.. I'm having classic IWS.. Internet Withdrawal Syndrome.. Coupled with the fact that my laptop is squeeky clean after my friend E formatted its hard disk the other day, there's practically nothing inside it - no movies, no Futurama, no nothing.. Arrrggghhh.. This is torture..
My Computing teacher, Mr. R said that my name, Dayah, is the same name as a prominent terrorist in India.. He killed a family of 16, including some of his own kin.. He was hanged 7 years later.. Hmm.. I wonder why Mr. R told me all this.. If it was supposed to be a friendly conversation, it certainly had a negative effect on me :P
But in the spirit of things, I changed my MSN Messenger's nickname to Indian Terrorist anyway.. hahaha..
I went to my first drama rehearsal today.. Found out that I had to do this really stupid slapstick joke.. Hmm.. Oh well.. I'm sure it won't be that bad once the whole college gets over it.. Like, in a couple of months after the show :P
Mock exams are getting near.. Where's the panic button?
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NHA at 3:55 PM ::
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Thankfully, the only semblance I got to an egg was the omelette in my nasi pattaya :) So basically I was spared of any unfortunate incidents.. Phew..
Yesterday I met up with my old classmate, C.. She's studying A-Levels in Taylor's College under a Public Services Department (PSD) scholarship.. It's been months since we last spoke to each other and I sort of 'forgot' to wish her "Happy Birthday" (her birthday was Feb 18) because I lost her hp number.. So when she SMSed me on my birthday (gulp), I asked who the sender was (double gulp).. After I knew that it was her, I asked her out for some good old 'mamak' food at our favourite hang out spot..
So there we were, catching up on our lives for the past few months.. She used to be attached to MC, a prominent chess player in the country.. And I was proud to claim that I was their matchmaker.. MC is among the cream of the crop of chess players in Malaysia so I was sort of 'honoured' to be somehow 'related' to him, no matter how insignificant my role was :P
But I emphasize on was proud.. Her whole love story is so complicated that it could double up as a Bollywood movie hands down.. But to cut a long story short, MC turned out to be nothing more than a jerk.. He played around with her feelings and she couldn't have put it in any other way - "He thinks too highly of himself".. Not unlike most of the guys I unfortunately fell for.. So it really changed my perspective on him.. He was no longer the idolized alpha male, but just a slimy sleazeball..
She also told me all about her ex who's trying to rekindle their past relationship.. He's currently studying in the UK and he said he's willing to wait for C.. Awww.. So touching.. Except for the part that he initiated their break up before because it was 'distrupting his studies'.. Hmm..
What is it with men? I know that I've been burnt badly recently, which probably explains my cynical viewpoint on boys.. But in the last 48 hours, I've heard 2 cases - unrelated to C - of guys confessing their 'love' for a girl and yet admitting that they like somebody else at the same time.. What's up with that? Just because a guy is up front and honest about their polygamous ways, does that mean that we girls have to accept them? It must take a lot of guts (and nerve) for guys to be able to confess about it.. True enough, knowing that you're being played is minimally better than not knowing anything about it.. But is that supposed to alleviate the pain?
No woman wants to share what 'belongs' to them, no matter what our religion says.. When you fall in love with someone, it comes in a package.. And that package more or less includes feeling possessive of your loved one.. But in Islam, a guy has the right to marry 4 women, thus the women have no choice but to conform because it is in the capacity of a man to love more than one woman.. And men (theoretically) are able to provide an equally fair share of their love and attention to each woman..
But how soon are we supposed to allow polygamy? Even in marriages, despite being legal, the society nowadays generally frown upon it.. But what about boy-girl relationships? Generally polygamy is normally associated to marriages.. And being a Muslim, provided that it is carried out fairly, it isn't considered as wrong, thus wives are (theoretically) discouraged from disallowing it.. How about boyfriends and girlfriends? Wives have to accept their husbands' 'new additions' just because they're married.. But if the formality of marriage isn't there, does that mean that the girls cannot accept polygamy in their boyfriends?
I know that my arguments sound very chauvinistic.. I'm not saying that I'm among those women who would gladly give away their man for other women.. I must say that amongst women, we constantly compete against each other.. And I have to admit that I'm one of them.. I couldn't possibly imagine life with a man who would have another woman by his side whenever something happens between us.. To me, it sort of makes our relationship less significant, because if anything should occur, instead of putting more importance on handling it, he would simply take the easy way out by turning to the other woman.. That in turn would harbour resentment between me and the other woman.. Which in turn would result in a very tumultuous love triangle.. Or square.. Or pentagon..
I believe that women are fated to be guided and protected by men.. But along the way, you're bound to bump into ogres before finding your knight in shining armour :P
My chalet's network is totally out.. It's been down since last Friday.. I guess I'll have to survive without Internet in my laptop for the next week or so.. I'm using one of the computers in the Resource Centre now.. I hope the problem will somehow miraculously disappear, although I know full well that the only way to do that is to fork out another RM100 or so to buy a new network card :P
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NHA at 3:44 AM ::
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Sunday, February 22, 2004
I got a camcorder!
Mr. Uncle came over with a couple of shopping bags and I shamelessly eyed them as he entered the house :P He gave me a beautiful bouquet of roses with a card written "To My Daughter" and a huge package.. I was thinking excitedly "Oh my.. Oh my.. This is it.. I wonder what it is.." as I ripped off its wrapper.. Then ta-da! It was a Sony video camcorder! It had pretty snazzy features, but the main problem with it is that it isn't a digital camera.. Which means that it can't be transferred to a computer and it has to rely on tape for recordings.. And the tape that goes with it is kind of similar to audio tapes.. Where the heck am I going to find a player which will play those kind of tapes? So I'm not exactly thrilled with the camcorder.. I know.. It's so ungrateful of me.. Well, the swivelling LCD display is cool and all, but what's the use of it for me? My brother's having a ball playing around with it.. I think I'll just give it to him :P
My mom gave me a cool watch which came in a beautiful pink-coloured Valentine's Day (yup, you read correctly) box.. My brother went out the whole day supposedly buying a birthday gift for me.. He ended up giving me a framed picture similar to the ones sold in bulk at discount shops.. My dad gave me this beautiful gold-plated paper weight.. Only it's not real gold.. And he gave me RM19 together with a birthday card.. At 1st I thought another RM1 must've slipped out somewhere.. Before realizing that the value was because of my age :P Oops.. my mistake.. I guess I'll get RM20 next year :)
I must say that today has been a good day.. Can't help looking forward to what my collegemates have in store for me tomorrow.. No matter what kind of probable mess lies ahead..
Darn.. can't Monday come a bit slower? :P
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NHA at 3:59 PM ::
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